….Lately holding onto my dreams after I wake has been like trying to catch a moth! Well, maybe no one really wants to catch a moth. Okay, how about chasing a butterfly. Yeah! That’s better, eh?? Anywhoo, this can be quite annoying as I really do consider my dreams the road maps that guide me through my waking life, making navigation a bit easier and I am a nightly dreamer. That being said, lately I’ve not been in the best of spaces. When this happens it’s even harder to grasp these dreams but the other morning was my first success in a long time. In my dream appeared this random black woman who was “face portrayed” by a woman in my community. She is older than I but sassy and chic. In real life the woman to whom this face belongs is a “bawse”. She wore a tailored black suit with knee length tailored shorts similar to what this model in the photo is wearing. She was busy, organizing some things, moving some things around. Never looking up from her tasks, she finally spoke:
“See! We just gotta get you in some a’these shorts!”
She said it to me as if it was the cure all for something. I scoffed but she said it like I would experience some coming together, things would make sense or that better yet, I WOULD finally make sense. I refuse her suggestion with a combination of snobbery and disdain wrapped in a simple, “No”. The sassy suit clad older woman blows off my NO as if I don’t know what’s best for me and as if she is not worried because there’s plenty of time for her to help me see things differently. I can tell that she is giving my response little to no consideration and as far as she’s concerned, we’re gonna get me into those shorts at some point! I’m irritated and feel like I need to make sure she gets it, so I launch into my whole “position on shorts”. I tell her not only won’t I wear the shorts — Not now, Not NEVAH! — ANY shorts evah. but that I don’t even BELIEEEVE in shorts! (which is in fact true by the way,lol). I am adamant and determined that she comprehend the idea that I WILL NOT, I say NOT conform to her idea. As a random “split screen” to this dream, all of these older women around me were having babies. …Older like 50’s older. For some reason this was bringing me great comfort. While I think it was connected to the obvious, I felt like it was also a reference to time in some way. Letting me know I have more time than I feel like I do to birth new things, ideas, projects….or babies, into the world (though there’s only like 1 year at best left on THIS clock, lol}.
When I woke and realized I’d managed to retain this snippet of a dream, I held on for dear life. The next question is always, “what did that mean?”. Before I could finish the question in my mind, I heard the answer fire back like this, “It means you dif’rent. ….AND you want a baby”. Damn messages from beyond are simple and pull no punches. Messages from beyond are always delivered in such a matter of fact tone. What is that?!! The inflection is not high or low, excited or subdued. It just IS and they leave little room for debate. I was taken aback at the translation, but it was funny too. –I’ve found over the years that sometimes my shortest dreams are the most telling, bringing crystal like clarity.
The day before this dream (in my waking life), this woman gave me a “funny compliment” on my look, adding at the end of it that she felt like it was “good to be different”. I loved it. I took no offense, but it was inter-taining (that’s interesting and entertaining combined, lol). When I had this dream and opted not to challenge it’s translation, I thought about my encounter with the woman and laughed at myself for still being stuck on that. Playing back in my mind her tone, her face her everything. It was a classic moment. I concluded that if nothing else, perhaps this was the phrase for the day, the recurring theme for the week or however long: you’re different. The evening after I had this dream, a gentleman says to me (in my real life), “…I’m really not sure how to explain it you’re just….just dif’rent…“. There it was again.
I guess I was right about the recurring theme thing. It’s one thing to know your different. It’s something else when others make observation or comment on it. I know that to be different is not a negative which leaves me to think that perhaps this is about me being reminded to celebrate that more than I currently am. To STAY reminded that it is indeed the blessing and never ever a curse but rather exactly how it should be. While I do know this, it’s amazing the things we can temporarily lose sight of and REQUIRE reminding of. People are definitely mirrors of sorts to us and I feel like that’s what’s happening now: I am being met with the mirror at every turn. The idea of being reminded to celebrate these things is a theme relevant in a few areas of my life, another confirmation on the accuracy of this message. ….Perhaps you’ve noticed I’ve not touched on that baby part much, lol. Has anyone ever pointed out something to YOU that you weren’t even fully ready to admit to yourself? Yeah, that’s where that is, so we will leave that part for another day. Suffice it to say, Inner Voice, Spirit, God, whomever you dialogue with NEVAH lies.
…..I hope your listening ears are on even while your eyes are closed.
“…Watching and listening with ALL EYEZ, third and otherwise up in Studio5”